Malbork - touch the history

Yes, just wow! We, I mean me, Milenka and some interns, were in Malbork today. It was really cool. I hadn't had remember that it's so impressive, huge, beautiful... We called the trip "Malbork - touch the history" and that's true - we could just touch it. So close. Medival ages. More than 700 years of history... You could almost feel the spirit - knights are practising, ladies are walking around and watching them, monks are praying, people are working... Just living. Just as today but so different.
We just caught a group with English guide - for us didn't make any difference and it was easier than translating - and I even got to know some unknown facts for me. About the war, rebuilding it, "normal" day in different times, etc...
And then we went for some coffee, chocolate in Gdansk. Some people left, some joined. At the beginning it was supposed to be a bear but we changed our minds :) Getting older and older :)

One minute ago somebody approached me at gadugadu, I don't know this person at all, but he wished me goodnight. So nice and sweet :)

It’s finished!

Yes, that’s true. Conference has passed. Quite a big learning I would say. In terms of cooperation within National Team, within international team, managing different and difficult situations with a huge amount of negative emotion and of course in terms of facilitating and sessions delivery (I’ve received good feedback so it’s cool). I have quite many outcomes about flexibility of agenda and fulfilling delegate’s needs, adjusting agenda to the situation… It was quite a big challenge. Unfortunately I also felt a little bit not “used” to the end. I mean that I could contribute more and do more. I guess there are two reasons and there is nobody to blame for. Just maybe I could have to have bigger initiative but also this is just managing resources within national team and using NST potential. But anyway I had more to do as I was at PM track that rest of NST which was at EB track. There are more frustrated….

Also I agreed (that was obvious from the begging that I would) to coordinate Invest Yourself from national level. That is going to be challenge from many reasons. Firstly, just the task. Then OCP of the conference. And ER side. But on the other hand that would be my responsibility, my task from the beginning. My own one! Ha! And I’m sure that I can count on the support, especially Patryk so it will be great. I was supposed to talk with him about it, but then I realized that I want to him to convince me. And that wasn’t proper approach at all. So, to be sure that’s my own decision I didn’t. At Tuesday Edytka will call me and we will set some details. I have to prepare for this talk…

Also there is one more thing which is lastly quite important for me… Audit is coming and LCCs are coming. And both are the same weekend. And there were an idea that I’m supposed to be in Marki during this time. It wasn’t even taken into the consideration what I prefer and what’s more valuable for me. For my own development (I don’t want to have anything in common with accountancy in the future). And what’s more I knew that during this time Edytka has team days in Paris with her old EB. So she has holidays and I should be in Marki. I just told her that I can come to Marki during the week and can spend there some time but I cannot just agree for this situation. I can help, frankly I want to help as I’m just interested how audit looks like but I also want to be on LCC. So we just need to combine both.

Because of the JD revising I’m also not going to take so many additional hours at the university. And I don’t know how to cope with my job finding. Probably I will just see how it’s going but maybe also search just for having this experience. I will think it over and plan! Yes, planning is AIESEC “zboczenie”.

The first day has passed

I was starting this conference with a feeling that I’m tired, not ready, don’t have energy, passion and motivation to be here. In fact that was he first time I was feeling so badly before the conference. And not even before but during the opening plenary! But now I feel quite good and motivated. I have now the feeling of purpose of being here. I’m still tired but anyway… People at “my” track, OCPs, are much more active and open that we could expect.

Some people approach me with some questions, doubts and I received really positive feedback so it’s great.

New proposition

As I was , I am, quite disapppointed with my jd, today I'd got meeting with Edytka and received new propositions of tasks. I have time tiil the end of the week to decide. So first is to coordinate from national level finance conference. To be in touch with organizing LC, service companies (conference is already sold) and to set up agenda with them. It will be connected with spending more time in Marki, devoting more time to AIESEC once again. So finance, external, project, logistic a little bit. A little bit of everything. This sounds really cool, interesting, challenging (especially in terms of er) and I'm interested much. But I'm afraid if I manage. I need to talk with several people, ask about their ideas of fields of cooperation, decision making process, responsibilities, how they are percieving it and with Patryk - if I'm good enough to manage with this external field. We were working more then one year together, he is er so will tell me the truth.
There is also proposition of coordinating finance learning network but we need to reconsider this and it's not sure if we are going to run these activities.
Also financial audit. For sure I will be present here in Marki and helping with it.
These are the most important, crucial and time consuming changes. As my university situation is still open I have space for these activities.
It sound really good for me - I will gain more knowledge - proffesional, external, develop more skills and competencies... And I'm just interested in them. Should I? Will I manage?

Marki welcome to

I'm in Marki again! We've just started a team days which are going to last till Tuesday, on Wenesday we are travelling to the AutCo venue - somewhere near Szczecin. I was not so happy to come here but now is quite cool here. Now some people are preparing supper, some watching TV, some sitting in front of the computers and chatting. I'm in this last group :). I've got here some people I'm feeling really good with. As always and everywhere I would say.
Today we've got integration with supper, we are going to chat all evening. It will be fun.
Tomorrow we are starting with "normal" agenda - plan review and update, IC update, AutCo premeeting and so on. Probably boring stuff :). I've got quite bad expectations - I'm prepared that will be bored here. Unfortunately. But on the other hand I can't wait AutCo. I am going to facilitate at OCP track. I'm still not prepared but I'm working on that :). And faci team is goining to be a little bit international - Poland, Germany, Estonia. Also I have to prepare some things at functional meeting. And one of my main aim at team days - talk and review my job description. I've got the feeling that I'm not doing anything. And I'm used to do something.
So, supper and wine is waiting! Marki welcome to!